i dont like mondays.
SOME people just HAVE to come and ruin it further.
i wont retaliate.
cos then it'll just make me as childish as you are.
it wasnt him who started it.
it was you, and im aware of it.
but i wont bring myself down to your level.
i've got better things to do.
maybe superficially, we seem knitted.
but there isnt substance.
all of this we're putting up is just an act, isnt it?
all of this we're putting up is just an act.
it's a mask for the world to see.
i've said it before, and i'll say it again:
we wont be enemies. we'll just be strangers.
i dont hate you. i just dont know you.
nervous breakdowns.
been getting them a lot lately.
it's the feeling of agony, pain..
and most of all: stress.
it's when you sit there, stare at the pile of work in front of you and start to cry.
it's when you sit and stone.
it's when your brain starts lagging or even hangs.
it's when you just dont feel like doing anything else but cry.
but it's when you know there's Someone there to love and care about you.
bcos of You, it's all brand new.
heart strings}
{3:27 AM,?}
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im standing with the faith of my Miracle Maker.
heart strings}
{3:14 AM,?}
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Friday, February 09, 2007
i've cried all my tears dry,
bled all my blood dry,
but the pain doesn't seem to go away.
thank you, i've never felt so awful in such a long time.
heart strings}
{9:02 PM,?}
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ouch.
heart strings}
{8:56 PM,?}
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Thursday, February 08, 2007
"as long as stars shine down from Heaven,
& the rivers run into the sea.
'til the end of time,
forever You're the only love i'll need.
in my life, You're all that matters.
In my eyes, the only truth I see.
when my hopes and dreams have shattered.
You're the one that's there for me.
imagine me without You.
i'd be lost and so confused.
i wouldn't last a day i'd be afraid without You there to see me through.
imagine me without You.
Lord, You know it's just impossible.
bcos of You
it's all brand new.
My life is now worth while.
i can't imagine me without You."
-imagine me without you by Jaci Velasquez.
heart strings}
{5:33 PM,?}
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oh, what the hell.
='(
heart strings}
{5:24 PM,?}
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Monday, February 05, 2007
"& the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away.
just stay a little while & hear me say.
that i want you here tonight,
& I need you by my side.
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you."
-one more moment by ronin.
hectic but enjoyable week.
a lot of tears but definitely more smiles.
only now..
do i believe that true platonic friendships DO exist.
heart strings}
{9:47 PM,?}
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
close every door to me,
hide all the world from me
bar all the windows and shut out the light.
do what you want with me,
hate me and laugh at me
darken my daytime and torture my night.
just give me a number instead of my name.
forget all about me and let me decay.
i do not matter,
i'm only one person.
destroy me completely then throw me away.
if my life were important i
would ask will I live or die,
but I know the answers lie far from this world.
for i know i shall find my own piece of mind,
for i have been promised a land of my own.
heart strings}
{5:45 PM,?}
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
"i'll hang from your lips,
instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.
& i've dropped out,
i've burned up,
i fought my way back from the dead.
tuned in, turned on,
remembered the things that you said:
i'll be your crying shoulder.
i'll be love's suicide.
i'll be better when im older.
i'll be the greatest fan of your life."
-i'll be by Edwin McCain.
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be.
heart strings}
{10:08 PM,?}
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